Why must I like Anwar?

I know some of you like or maybe even love Anwar. I have no problems with that. But just because you like or love Anwar that does not mean I too must do so. And just because I do not like or love the same people that you do this does give you the right to vilify, disparage, mock and curse me.

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Raja Petra Kamarudin

There are people who are of the opinion that if I am a reformist, if I am loyal to the cause, if I really wish to see change, then I should love Anwar Ibrahim and sing his praises. If I do not love Anwar, then I am not a reformist, I am not loyal to the cause, and I do not wish to see change.

Well, you have probably figured this out by now (and if you haven’t then you are dumber than I thought) but I do not love Anwar Ibrahim. But that does not mean I hate him either. Not loving does not necessarily translate to hate. For example, I do not love Britney Spears’s music. But that does not mean I hate her music either.

In fact, I rather like her slower numbers such as ‘I'm Not A Girl, Not Yet A Woman’, ‘Born To Make You Happy’, ‘Don't Let Me Be The Last To Know’, ‘From The Bottom Of My Broken Heart’, and so on. However, I would not regard her music as ‘to die for’, unlike Emile Sandé’s song ‘Clown’, which I play every day, a few times a day. Now that is a song ‘to die for’ that gives me goose pimples (in fact, I’m listening to that song even as we speak).

My ‘displeasure’ with Anwar, if I may be permitted to call it that, started around August 2004. I was then the Director of the Free Anwar Campaign, which I headed for roughly five years of the six years that Anwar was in jail. And I funded it from my own pocket except for the RM1,000 that Dr Wan Azizah Wan Ismail gave me in 2000 and the RM2,000 that Anwar’s brother, Rosli, gave me in 2002. That was all: RM3,000 in total from Anwar’s family.

But that was not an issue. I was not doing all this for money anyway. Then, in August 2004, one of Anwar’s lawyers, Pawanchik Merican, spoke to me to ask me how much I was receiving every month to run the Free Anwar Campaign. I replied that other than the RM3,000 I had received thus far, I was not receiving any money and that the cost to run the Free Anwar Campaign came from my own pocket.

Pawanchik was very upset when I told him this. He knew I was travelling all over the country campaigning not only for Anwar but also against the Internal Security Act. And he also knew that Anwar’s people had raised a few million Ringgit in the name of the Free Anwar campaign. Hence he thought that the money actually went into financing the Free Anwar Campaign.

Pawanchik then informed me that he had visited Anwar in the Sungai Buloh Prison and had told Anwar about this but Anwar did not respond. He just kept quiet. Pawanchik then advised me to close down the Free Anwar Campaign to stop Anwar’s people from using it to raise money.

I told Pawanchik I would only close down the Free Anwar Campaign once Anwar is free from prison and not a day earlier. Pawanchik replied that Anwar is going to remain in prison for at least another six years. So am I prepared to keep running the Free Anwar Campaign for another six years?

I told Pawanchik that Anwar was going to be released in another few weeks, after which I will then close down the Free Anwar Campaign. Pawanchik laughed and said that none of Anwar’s many lawyers believed that he would be free in another few weeks. They were very confident that Anwar would spend no less than ten years in jail in total, maybe even 12 years.

I then wrote an article that Anwar would see freedom on 2nd September 2004 and one of Anwar’s lawyers came to see me at my home in Sungai Buloh to scold me. And this lawyer told me that he is scolding me on Anwar’s behalf because my article that Anwar would be freed on 2nd September 2004 is a lie and not true at all.

Anyway, I was right and Anwar and his lawyers were wrong. Anwar was freed on 2nd September 2004 as I had written. On that same day I put the Free Anwar Campaign to sleep and began to focus on Malaysia Today fulltime, which I had launched two weeks earlier on Friday, 13th August 2004.

On that day, 2nd September 2004, Anwar’s lawyer (the one who had come to my house to scold me) phoned me and said that Anwar wanted to see me. I told him to go to hell. The next day, 3rd September 2004, Anwar’s brother, Rosli (the chap who had given me RM2,000) phoned me and, again, told me that Anwar wanted to see me. And, again, I told him to go to hell.

On the third day, 4th September 2004, Dato' Kamarul Bahrin Abbas (the current MP for Teluk Kemang) phoned me and pleaded with me to come and see Anwar. Dato’ told me that Anwar was leaving for Germany that same night and he wanted to see me before he leaves. I told Dato’ that Anwar can leave for Germany and maybe I will see him when he returns. Dato’ said Anwar wanted to see me before he leaves.

I felt bad because I have great respect for Dato’ Kamarul, who was my boss in the party newspaper, Berita Keadilan, later changed to Seruan Keadilan. I asked my wife, Marina, what I should do and she replied that if I wanted to go and see Anwar then I will have walk there because she was not going to drive me. Finally Marina agreed to drive me as long as she can wait outside the house and not have to go into the house to also see Anwar.

I went to see Anwar that 4th September 2004 not because he wanted to see me but because I segan with Dato’ Kamarul. Dato’ Kamarul, in fact, was waiting outside the house when we arrived and he escorted me into Anwar’s bedroom.

Anwar’s first words to me were, “Allah, anak Raja ni, susah sungguh nak panggil datang jumpa.”

I replied, “Why do you want to see me? After all you are not happy with me.”

So you see, as early as back in August 2004 when I launched Malaysia Today and Anwar was spending his last fortnight in prison I had already ‘washed my hands’ of him. And I made that very clear by refusing to go and see him even when his lawyer and brother phoned me. I relented on the third day only because I wanted to ‘give face’ to Dato’ Kamarul because I segan with him, my boss in the party newspaper. When I segan with someone I will give him/her face even if I am not happy doing what they request from me.

Hence I ‘stayed’ with Anwar not because I love Anwar but for the sake of Dato’ Kamarul who I have great respect for.

In the 2008 general election, I campaigned for DAP, but not for Pakatan Rakyat. I declined all the invitations to speak at the PAS and PKR rallies/ceramah. I told them I would only speak at the DAP rallies. And I did, all the way to Penang.

Then they approached me and asked me to speak at Nurul Izzah’s ceramah. At first I said ‘no’. No PKR ceramahs. Then a friend pleaded with me to help Nurul. Because of this friend who I also segan, an Indian chap, I relented and said that only at Nurul’s ceramah, but not at the other PKR ceramah -- exclusive for Nurul Izzah only. And until today I still support Nurul and even helped raise money for her (which I did last year).

I love Tok Guru Abdul Hadi Awang and Tok Guru Nik Aziz Nik Mat. When I meet them I kiss their hands to demonstrate my love for them. Many of you, however, do not like these two PAS leaders. Some of you, in fact, hate them. But I do not vilify, disparage, mock and curse you because you do no like them or you hate them.

I like Karpal Singh. In fact, I have great respect for Karpal and his sons, Gobind in particular. Many of you do not like Karpal. Some of you even hate him and feel he should just retire and keep his mouth shut. But I do not vilify, disparage, mock and curse you because you do no like Karpal or you hate him.

I know some of you do not like Dato’ Kamarul, the only person in Malaysia who can get me to go and see Anwar. But I do not vilify, disparage, mock and curse you because you do not like Dato’ Kamarul or you hate him. In fact, I even know that some of you are going to sabotage Dato’ Kamarul in the coming general election to make sure he loses his seat. But I still do not vilify, disparage, mock and curse you.

So, no, I have not ‘turned’ of late, as some of you allege. I already ‘turned’ -- if you wish to use that word -- back in August 2004 when I first launched Malaysia Today. Nothing has changed. In spite of that I still went to Penang to campaign and ceramah for Anwar during the 2008 Permatang Pauh by-election (and he did not even thank me for that). And when Anwar went to London a few times I travelled down to London to meet him at my own expense.

And let me share a secret with you. The more you vilify, disparage, mock and curse me because I do not love Anwar the more I am going to write articles and exposés uncomplimentary to Anwar just to teach you a lesson.

Nobody tells me whom I can and cannot love or like. And I will keep whacking until you get this through your thick head. And if you do not like that, tough, that is your problem, not mine.